Yo voy a España!!!!!!

I made it in!!!   It's like a dream come true, I just want to scream at the top of my lungs and tell everyone.  I'm delirious right now, overwhelmed by the urge to laugh, cry and shout.  I checked the website several times today at work, never really expecting to hear anything and wasn't disappointed when I didn't.  But I was home by about 4:30 and decided that it had been a few hours and just maybe I would be one of the last ones placed today.  And then, there it was, amongst this huge list of names: Chamberlain, Richelle----Adjudicada-----Murcia!!  I think that moment, of scrolling down and seeing my name, will be burned into my mind for eternity.

Watch out Spain, here I come!!!

....still

Sigh. Not yet. But I can't sleep past 8am even on my spring break because I'm so antsy. I wake up dreaming about being accepted or worse, denied, and immediately get up to check. Luckily, "getting up" to check doesn't entail actually getting out of bed because I'm so aware of my pathetic desire to know immediately that I place my laptop within arms reach the night before. 


I sent this as an IM to a good friend checking to see what I'd heard.  I thought it summed up my desperation pretty well.  Hopefully the next post will be an ecstatic-oh-my-god-I'm-going-to-Spain!!!!!!! post. 

Hoy

Here it is, today, March 15, 2011.  They've started placements.  Since my number, 553, isn't all that low I don't expect to hear anything for a few days.  I imagine that I will know before the week is up, but that doesn't mean that I'm not going to check every available moment.

I woke up this morning at 8am, too excited to sleep.  I immediately grabbed my laptop (which I had conveniently placed at arms reach the night before) and got online to see the news.  The facebook site for the program has been getting hits all morning, people anxiously awaiting the news, but nothing yet.  They have done 433 placements, but people with numbers as low as 44 still haven't heard anything.  I'm assuming that most of those placements are returning auxiliares.  I have good reason to believe this because I follow a blog of a girl in Spain right now and I saw her name on the list of adjudicada.  (Congratulations Elizabeth!)

So here's waiting.  I'm extremely nervous and am hosting more doubt than I have in the last 3 months combined.  Thank goodness I'm going to work today or I would drive my entire household crazy hunching over the computer all day.

Esperando....

I'm going to Spain.  I can feel it in my heart, there's no way that it can't happen.

They say that if you believe in something hard enough it will be real.  I always thought that with my very skeptical disposition this method of accomplishment would be impossible for me.  But from the moment I received my inscrita number of 553, I have known.  I started talking about it as if it were already a sure thing.

I have chosen not to renew my cell phone contract.  I have taken out a small loan for unexpected expenses.  I've opened a separate banking account for money that I've already started saving up.  I'm putting up with a job while doing my student teaching so that I can use that waitressing job to make good money this summer before I go off.  I've started to not buy things because I'm just going have to get rid of them when I go over seas.

And then, yesterday, I checked my email.  The Cultural Ambassadors February Newsletter says that they'll be making their first placements starting March 15th.  My nerves are a wreck.  I know I'm going.  But I want to KNOW I'm going.

Can I possible stay focused on my current life for the next two weeks while I wait for this moment?